We are not saved forever no matter what, we do will and continue to have, choices and free will forever, you can return and crucify Him a new.
You can by choice turn from God at any point at any time, we are sons and daughters, priests and kings, by him, but you can also turn from what he has giving you and as well become what ever YOU want.
Whether you understand this or not this is his love for you, he only wants you because you want him.
Not 1 is condemned to Salvation.